The Shadow Girl Page 4

  As she heads for Wyatt, I start off toward the hiker and Mr. Dimitri, weaving through a scattering of people and acknowledging murmured words of sympathy.

  “I missed your name the other day when you were in the coffee shop,” Mr. Dimitri is saying to the hiker when I join them.

  “I’m Ty Collier.” They shake hands. “I’m sorry I didn’t introduce myself.”

  Mr. Dimitri notices me and offers his condolences. I slip my hands into my coat pockets and say, “Don’t let me interrupt.”

  He smiles. “You aren’t.”

  I look at Ty and instantly blush. “Hello,” I murmur, mortified by my reaction to him.

  “Hi, Lily,” he says in that same soothing voice I remember so well. “It’s great to see you.”

  There’s something about him that’s sweet and gentle, yet also strong. I think again of how much he helped me when Dad was dying, how his calmness kept me afloat when I was about to drown. I was too frantic to notice much about him then, but I take in everything now. Ty isn’t tall, but he isn’t short, either, and he’s thin rather than lanky. Something makes him seem more mature than the guys from town. I try to look at him discreetly as he and Mr. Dimitri resume their conversation. He’s a little rumpled, his dark hair longish and shaggy, like he’s past due for a cut, and the dark blue shirt beneath his open coat is wrinkled. His eyes are deep set and brown, his mouth wide . . . and disarming. I feel myself starting to blush again and quickly glance up from his lips, noticing the thin scar that slices across his right cheekbone. It looks fairly new.

  Mr. Dimitri asks, “Why Silver Lake, Ty?”

  “I was just driving through and it caught my attention. I’m a freshman at Columbia but I took this semester off to do some traveling. Silver Lake’s a pretty place. I thought I might stay awhile and do a little hiking if I can find work to tide me over.”

  “Construction?” Mr. Dimitri asks.

  “Yeah, that. Or anything, really,” says Ty.

  Dad’s friend pulls a card from his pocket and hands it to him. “Call me later and I’ll give you Tommy Carter’s number. He’s a contractor. He’s building a couple of houses right now.”

  Ty thanks him, then Mr. Dimitri excuses himself and walks away.

  “I’m really sorry about your dad,” says Ty, his dark gaze roaming my face.

  “I never got a chance to thank you for helping me,” I tell him. “I don’t know how I would’ve got through it if you hadn’t shown up.”

  “I wish I could’ve done more.” He puts his hands into the pockets of his gray wool peacoat and clears his throat.

  The silence between us stretches a few beats too long, making me feel self-conscious and shy. “So you’re staying in town?” I ask, just to have something to say.

  He nods. “Yeah. I’m renting a place by the community college. Silver Lake Studio Apartments.”

  “A day or a lifetime?” I say, reciting the corny line from the banner that hangs in front of the building.

  He gives a short laugh. “Yeah, it’s a real classy place.” We both fall silent again, then Ty adds, “If I can do anything for you, let me know. Your mom, too.” He glances to where Addie, Sylvie, and Wyatt stand talking to Mr. Dimitri. Actually, Addie is the only one talking. Wyatt is staring at Ty and me and frowning.

  “Addie’s not my mom,” I say, realizing Ty’s mistake. “She’s a neighbor.”

  “Oh.” He tilts his head. “Hey, how’s your dog?”

  “Cookie’s better. I’m bringing him home from the vet later today.”

  He grins. “That’s great. I’ve been wondering about him.” Thunder rumbles far off in the distance. Ty shakes his head. “You guys have the craziest weather here. It snowed a few days ago, then it was sunny and warmer, and now it’s going to rain?”

  I shrug. “In the spring it can change from one day to the next.”

  “That’s what I’ve heard.” Ty looks up at an ominous gray cloud. “I guess I better go.”

  “We probably all should,” I say, but I don’t want to tell him good-bye.

  As if he reads my thoughts, Ty says hesitantly, “Maybe we could meet up sometime while I’m here. Have coffee or something?”

  “I’d like that,” I tell him, a tiny thrill zinging through me when his face lights up.

  “I’d give you my number if I had something to write with,” he says.

  Sometime during the last thirty seconds, Wyatt wandered up behind Ty. He’s pretending to listen to Paula talk to some man I don’t recognize, but I know Wyatt. He’s eavesdropping on me. Thinking Paula might have a pen in her purse, I call to her and ask, and she pulls one out of the leather bag hanging over her shoulder. I give it to Ty.

  He takes a scrap of paper from his pocket and scribbles his number onto it. As he hands it to me, our fingers touch and I almost can’t breathe.

  “If you can get away, just let me know,” Ty says.

  I nod, ashamed of what I’m feeling for this guy at my dad’s funeral. And then, without warning, I’m crying silently. Tears pour down my face.

  Ty backs up a step, but I see understanding in his expression. “’Bye, Lily,” he murmurs. “Take care, okay?”

  I nod, clutching the paper with his number on it, and watch him walk away.

  Not a single drop of rain has fallen yet when Wyatt drives me into town in his rattling truck an hour later to pick up Cookie.

  I’m glad to get away, just the two of us. I try to pretend it’s just another day, that we’re going into town to the hockey rink to shoot pucks on a Saturday morning, and Mom and Dad are at home together, her cooking something deliciously gooey in the kitchen and him out working in his shop.

  I can almost believe it. But not quite.

  We’re both silent as Wyatt turns onto the two-lane highway that runs through town. I lean my head back and stare out the window. Silver Lake sits in the shadow of the mountains. Red-roofed houses lie scattered haphazardly up the sides of the tree-studded slopes. I love the Gothic feel of the town, the familiar dark sweep of scrub oak, faded houses, and old stone buildings.

  Soon, Wyatt exits the highway and makes his way along Silver Lake’s red-bricked streets. We stop at a light, and Wyatt clears his throat. His knee is bouncing up and down.

  “Are you okay?” he asks almost warily.

  “Would you please stop that?” I say, tensing up.

  Wyatt flinches. “What did I do?”

  “Stop being so weird around me.”

  “I’m sorry. I just—I don’t know what to say, I guess. You know. To help you. To make things better.”

  “You can’t make this better, Wyatt!” I say, more sharply than I intend to.

  He shifts uncomfortably, an expression of helpless confusion shadowing his face. The light turns green, and he takes off again.

  “Nobody can make this better,” I tell him, my voice shrill and wobbly. “It’s never going to be better.”

  “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean—”

  “Quit apologizing! God, Wyatt. I’m the one yelling at you for no good reason. Why do you have to be so nice? Why don’t you just punch me or something?”

  Wyatt draws back his head and scowls. “Punch you? Shit. I don’t want to hit you! Why would I punch you?”

  “Because . . .” I swallow. “Because if I hurt on the outside, maybe I won’t feel this awful pain on the inside.” Sobbing, I lower my head.

  I don’t look up again until the truck comes to a stop. We’re parked in front of the veterinary clinic, a mud-colored adobe building. I stare at the door.

  Seconds tick by, then Wyatt sighs and says, “Jeez, Lil. I’m—”

  “Don’t say it!” Despite my mood, a smile twitches my lips.

  Wyatt grins his sheepish grin. “I was going to say ‘I’m happy to oblige, ma’am.’ To punch you, I mean.” He pulls off the blue stocking cap he always wears and bows in his seat, his sandy hair spiked out all over his head.

  And just like that, I feel lighter, a little more like mys
elf. “You’re such a dweeb,” I say, squeezing the words through my swollen throat. “I don’t believe for a second that you were going to say that.”

  Scowling, he tugs his hat back on. “You wound me. Name one time I’ve ever misled you.”

  “This week, or last?” I smirk at him.

  Wyatt tilts his head to the side. “So where do you want me to slug you?”

  I point at my chin and smile. “Here.”

  He makes a fist, draws it back, then brings it forward, brushing it against my chin gently. “Pow,” he says.

  My smile falls away. “I can’t believe Dad’s dead,” I say quietly.

  “Me either. It doesn’t seem real.”

  I sigh. “I’m sorry for yelling at you. It’s just . . . everything keeps building up inside me. You were just in the way when it exploded.”

  “Hey, that’s what I’m here for.”

  We climb out of the truck, and I go inside the clinic, while Wyatt spreads his sleeping bag out in the car to make a bed for Cookie. Dr. Trujillo gives me some painkillers, then carries Cookie outside, placing him in the middle of the old bench seat where Wyatt has laid the sleeping bag.

  When Wyatt and I take off again, I lean down and look into Cookie’s eyes. He licks my cheek, happy to see me. I bury my face in his warm, furry neck and stroke his back while Wyatt drives.

  Wyatt is grinning like an idiot when I finally lift my head. “Remember when we dressed Cookie up in a cowboy hat and a bandanna and took him with us to that Halloween carnival when we were kids?” he asks. “He’s probably still psychologically warped over it.”

  As if to prove Wyatt’s point, Cookie groans and we both laugh.

  Wyatt reaches over and scratches Cookie between the ears. “I wonder if your mom still has those pictures she took of him in his costume.”

  “I don’t know. I’d ask, but she’s not speaking to me,” I say. “She’s the one acting psychologically warped lately.”

  “Maybe she just couldn’t handle the funeral stuff. Too hard.”

  “Maybe,” I say.

  He looks back at the road. We ride in silence the rest of the way home.

  When we arrive, Wyatt puts Cookie in his pen by the fire while I slip out of my coat and join Addie in the kitchen. She’s busy labeling the food people brought while we were gone and putting it in the freezer. Casseroles and soups go hand in hand with grief, I guess.

  “Nobody brought desserts,” Addie informs me. “I’ll make a blackberry cobbler later.”

  “You don’t have to do that,” I say.

  “Nonsense.” Placing another casserole into the freezer, she adds, “I know there’s plenty here for lunch, but I was thinking I’d try to talk your mama into going to town with me for a bite to eat. Give you two a break from each other and get her mind off her troubles for a while.”

  “Good luck getting Mom out of Dad’s shop. Ever since the accident, she’s practically living out there. She said she’s been doing some sketching and going through Dad’s things, deciding what to get rid of.”

  “Bless her heart. That does it, then; she has to get away. A change of scenery’s bound to lift her spirits.”

  I hand Addie the last labeled bag, and she puts it in the freezer and closes the door. “I know it’s hard, Lily, especially since you’re also grieving, but try to be patient with your mother right now. I’ll head on out to your dad’s shop now and talk to her,” Addie says. “Wish me luck.”

  After she leaves, Wyatt and I go to Cookie’s pen. Stooping, I murmur, “How’re you doing, boy?” Dr. Trujillo warned me that Cookie is still on shaky ground, mostly because he’s fourteen, which is something like ninety-eight human years. I reach in and scratch his head. “Nobody understands how tough you are, do they?”

  Wyatt crouches beside me, and when Cookie licks my hand, he says, “Rats also show affection by licking.”

  “Sick.” I scowl at him and snort a laugh.

  “I’m talking about rats that have been bred to be pets.”

  “Who’d want a pet rat?”

  “Lots of people. Domesticated rats make great companions. They’re small, they’re smart, they’re playful, and they clean themselves like cats.” He ticks the points off on his fingers. “I’ve been thinking about getting one.”

  I scrunch up my nose. “Well, it’s been nice knowing you.”

  “You’d cash in our friendship over a rat?”

  Tilting my head to one side, I squint at him. “Hmmm.”

  “You have to think about it?” Wyatt clutches at his chest.

  “Go ahead. Get a rat. Big Betty will take care of it for me,” I say, referring to Addie’s cat.

  He winces. “I forgot about Big Betty.”

  Standing, I start for the stairs. Wyatt stopped by his house and changed into jeans and a flannel shirt before we went into town, but I’m still wearing my clothes from the memorial. “Watch Cookie while I change, okay?” I say.

  “Sure. I’ll put some more wood on the fire, too. It’s sort of cold in here.”

  I head up to my room and exchange my black wool pants and sweater for my oldest, holiest jeans, a Denver Broncos long-sleeved T-shirt, and my knockoff Ugg boots.

  Below, the fire crackles as Wyatt stokes it, and I smell the scent of wood smoke. Warm air eddies up to push out the cold. I’m aware of Iris, but we don’t talk. It’s a careful silence. I guess she’s figured out that I’m not going to listen to any more vague warnings that she can’t or won’t explain.

  I forgave her this morning at the lake, and I think she knows that. I still can’t imagine why she told me to “be careful” before Dad’s accident, but it couldn’t have been the deer. Now that I’m thinking straight, I know Iris was telling me the truth when she said she didn’t know what was going to happen. If she had, she would’ve found a way to get through to me. She wouldn’t have let Dad get hurt for any reason. I know this because Iris would never hurt me, and nothing could be more painful than losing my dad.

  Before going downstairs again, I take the slip of paper with Ty’s number on it and enter the information into my phone. I don’t know if I’m brave enough to make the first move and call him, but I really want to see him again. Ever since he left the lake this morning, I haven’t been able to stop thinking about him.

  Twisting my hair into a braid, I return to the living room where Wyatt is sitting on the floor next to Cookie’s pen. He has the gate open and his hand is resting on Cookie’s head. I plop down beside him and cross my legs.

  “Who was that guy you were talking to at the lake?” he asks.

  “His name is Ty Collier. He’s the guy who helped me with Dad.”

  “Oh, man,” says Wyatt. “If I’d known that, I would’ve thanked him.”

  “He goes to college at Columbia. Or did. Ty told Mr. Dimitri he took this semester off.”

  Shifting to look at Cookie, Wyatt says, “So are you going to go out with him?”

  “I thought you were snooping.” I shove him. “He didn’t ask me out, he just asked me to meet him for coffee.”

  “Well, I’d steer clear of him if I were you. I mean, the guy showed up out of nowhere. He could eat babies for breakfast, for all we know.”

  “Whatever.” I roll my eyes.

  The door opens and Addie hurries in, followed by a rush of cool air. “I finally wore her down. Your mother’s closing up the shop. She asked me to get her purse.”

  “Doesn’t want to see me, huh?” I try to keep my voice light, even though it hurts to think that Mom’s avoiding me.

  “Give her some time,” says Addie, sending me a look of sympathy.

  Heading for Mom’s bedroom, I find her purse, then bring it to Addie.

  She opens the door and steps onto the porch, saying, “Hold down the fort while we’re gone.”

  “We’ll do our best,” Wyatt says, then in a teasing mock-whisper to me, adds, “Go see if she locked up the liquor cabinet.”

  Addie shakes her head and mutters something s
arcastic about Wyatt leaving for college as she closes the door.

  Suddenly serious, Wyatt says hesitantly, “Speaking of college, are we still on for going to OU together in the fall?”

  I tell him that I’m not sure I should leave Mom alone so soon after Dad’s death, and that maybe I should go to Silver Lake Community College next semester instead. I could transfer to OU in the spring.

  He exhales loudly. “Man. It won’t be the same without you. Maybe I should—”

  “Don’t change your plans because of me, Wyatt,” I break in. “Dad said we should do our own thing and not influence the other’s decisions.” My throat tightens. “We’re not little kids anymore. We’re not always going to be around for each other.”

  Wyatt looks like I stabbed him, then he turns and stares into the fire.

  “That came out wrong, Wyatt. You know what I meant.”

  “It just seems weird that you might not always be close by,” he mutters.

  “I know.”

  He gives me a sideward glance. “I wasn’t seriously considering staying here with you, though. Did you really think I’d give up a semester of beer pong and hot college girls for your sake?”

  I smirk at him. “Yeah, I should’ve known better than that.”

  Wyatt stands up and stretches. “So what do you want to do this afternoon?”

  “Take advantage of Mom being gone.” I motion toward the hallway. “Come on.”

  He frowns. “Where are we going?”

  “To look for Dad’s spare keys to the workshop. I want to see what Mom finds so interesting out there.”

  5

  After going through all of the dresser and nightstand drawers in my parents’ bedroom, I start in on their closet.

  Wyatt stands inside the doorway, leaning against the frame. “I don’t feel right about this,” he mutters.

  “You don’t have to help,” I tell him, shoving hangers across the rod. I understand why he doesn’t approve. I feel like a thief as I search inside pockets and shoes. If Mom walked in, she might never speak to me again. I’d be furious if I ever found her nosing through my personal items. How can I expect her to feel any different?